1.
결국 갈 곳이 없는 이야기는 이곳으로 오게 된다.
2.
즐겁고 동시에 우울하다
a lot of times, I am just trying to fight the tears back.
I thought I spoke the language but obviously I don't.
being part of the conversations is simply too hard
I don't know what to say, what to ask
I have no interest in talking to them and they have no interest in talking to me
3.
I want to go home
4.
동양인이어서인가
여자여서인가
남자애들이랑 잘 어울려서인가
작업실이 떨어져 있어서인가
여러 가지 스스로를 labeling하며 이유를 생각하는 것도 싫고
it's not me, it's them 이라고 생각하다가도
maybe it's me 라고 돌아오는.
5.
그냥 i miss y too much.
왜 작업을 해야 하는지 잘 모르게 된다.
what if I just go somewhere, live with y, have kids? what's wrong with that?
or am I just running away